If you are interested in China, if good health is not obvious to you, if you struggle with a relationship or if spiritual questions interest you, then maybe we have something in common!

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I lived the backpacker's life around the world when I was twenty years old. In China I met passionate love so I went back three years later to get married.

The first year of our marriage we lived among the beautiful mountains of Guilin in south China.

The surroundings were wonderful, but life was hard for a spoilt westerner like me. I didn't even learn Chinese.

But there were some really good parts too!

 

Every morning exercising people
in all ages crowd the parks.
The old men take their birdcages to hang them in the trees.
Some people jog,
but most of the exercises
look calm and concentrated.
People's faces show peace and harmony.

Later I learned tai chi
and today I miss the Chinese parks
where you can do tai chi
in the fresh morning air.
To do it outside here in Sweden needs courage.

But some people dare!

 

Six years ago I suddenly got a rheumatic disease called SLE (lupus).

I will not tell you about the suffering it has given me, but I will tell you that it has made me look for my own joy, pleasure and development in life.

To get ill has forced me to care about myself. Suddenly it was not possible to be "everybody's angel". I also discovered that being " my own angel" was more difficult the anything else. But I am making progress and my reward is to get less ill.

 

I recently read the book "Conversations with God" by Neale Donald Walsch. Among other things I realized that we make all our choices from fear or from love. The most difficult choice I've ever made was to get a divorce from my husband. But this decision was made out of love, the love to myself. To stay would have been a choice out of fear.

Isn't it strange that we have to be brave to love and very brave to love ourselves? But believe me, to love makes us grow inside.